I have known her for quite sometime now. She studied in the same school. We got into to college together. We laughed together and cried together. We went through lot of emotions together. We were always there for each other. But we were different in everything. I was sophisticated, she was clumsy. I knew what to say when, most of the times. She never watched her tongue. I was always dressed up for the occasion and she just went on with it like a routine. She lived life like a party and I lived like a routine. Where I fell short she complimented me and where she fell short I did. I never felt the need of anyone else. She brought in the adventure and carefree attitude to my life. I was happy.
Then one day something happened. She started distancing herself from me. I started feeling left out. I cried and begged for her to come back. I didn’t know what went wrong. I cried for days and nights. I searched for her near and far. Yet I never could reach her, talk to her, tell her how empty I feel without her. I tried and tried and tried. I persuaded my friends to talk to her. They laughed saying I was better off without her. How can they even know what she meant for me. They cant even imagine it in their wildest dreams.
I kept trying till one day she sighed and told me “One last time lets talk”.
Yes, this is the chance I wanted. I was sure I will convince her and things would go back to as there were before. I asked her what went wrong. One look into her eyes told me this was the last I would see her. What she told baffled me. I could not believe my ears. I , I was the whole reason for her behavior. Me with all my trying to be someone else, I lost my one and only innermost self. I had to carry on with rest of my life without being me. I had to pretend everyday and every minute. I am all alone without being myself. Locked in my own reflection forever………..